Everything wasn't as good as expected. There's chances of me retaining, in fact, high chances, according to Ms Chua. I did badly for my Midyears which means that I don't fit the criteria of Direct School Admission. Well, I have always told myself that I've to work hard if I want to pursue canoeing. However, the zeal in me can never last. I don't know why, but I'm just.very.easily.distracted. I was supposed to make full use of my holidays, prove to those who look down on me and do well for Prelims and O' levels. But, who knows I might just fail O levels (which everyone calls it easy)? Like almost everyone, I want to go to a Junior College. My reasons might not be the same as others, but I have two main reasons. Firstly, I want to canoe. Secondly, I want pursue Sport Science in NTU. And. I guess, I don't have the courage to face this 'somebody' if I really entered the Polytechnic with my desired course. What more, in the same team. Sigh. I'm just going to try to leave it as it is and see how things go.