Twist logic.

My exams start tomorrow... sigh. Study sessions aft school till 16th october. English paper tomorrow, hopefully nice topic for free writing. DESPERATELY LOOKING FOR : Someone to teach me Biology!

"Sometimes you tell someone never to call again and then the phone rings and you hope its them... " Futile attempts. A brand new day awaits me.

Almost there.

Its funny how we change so much without realising it.

I'm ultra tired. haven't been speaking much in school i guess, neglecting friends and stuff. I need a break baaadly. I want to set some time aside for training. I don't want to fall back again. It feels real. Horrible. But now i don't have the time to prepare myself for examinations, furthermore training? Three papers tomorrow, chemistry e and a math, strongest subjects, yet i'm not even prepared for it. I'm sick of it, the feeling of being unprepared about everything. Almost there, just hang on...

bus ride was fun >:):)

Masked.

Joey ask to Fortune Teller Genius:

Asked Will coach get the Nelo Vanquish III K2?
and the answer is No, first you must study

omggg look @ this!!!!!! It sounds real, i don't know why. I guess, i really have to grab a pen and start writing. Enough of blogging, facebook, texting, msn and everything. I realised I get distracted vv easily, I don't have the discipline to study @ home. I don't like this. Ok rlly need to start studying already hahahaha this week is the best week ever shit i can ever get. Everyday after school stay at home, stone study msn.

Anyway "ohh shit",
have a safe trip @ penang and have fun.

Does this deafening silence mean nothing to no one but me?

I'm sick of everything. Sometimes, I longed that I could time travel so everything will return to what it was like in the past, when things weren't that distant. I appear to be looking fine all the time, happy. But when I think of ------, it would likely to be the opposite. It seemed that I have moved on, in fact I have not. I climb so high, but still I fall back down.

Your change is expected, I say. I don't like to see how you have changed to a contrast of what you were. I don't want to be in this debate within myself, leaving me signs of slight hope that you will eventually return to what you were. Basically, i'm convincing myself that I will survive in a battle when I have nothing with me. High hopes and Heartbreak. I can't be bothered, I'm trying to accept for who you are now. You and your circle, you and your "insensitive side for others", you and your promises.

I really don't want to care anymore about your change.
You can go on bragging,
your girls (mind you, the word "girls" is with a S),
and whatever you can brag about.

Tell me honestly once more.
Does it matter now if I say I miss you?



JOKE OF THE DAY :
sissy received her birthday present from us, opened the box, saw a tin of milo, thinking that there was still something else inside the tin, tried opening using bare hands but to no avail, so she used a ruler to open it and found out that it's actually MILO POWDER inside.

happy fifteen darling sissy and wongy~

Did you ever...

NOBODY'S PERFECT... Are you going to get pissed over how someone wants their own privacy? Start a war? Tell someone off?

I.REALLY.WANT.TO.DO.WELL.

I told you that i can study better outside already...Why can't you have some trust in me since i'm your daugher, or am i even your biological daughter? What you do is to, check my phone for texts and ban me from this and that... Countless things. Basically that's all i can remember.

sorry i just felt like it bye

Cast no shadow.

Last training today... was much disappointment? It didn't feel like I gave my all for all race sets because i was pushing people on... Is this an excuse or a fact? I don't know. Anyway, happy coaches' day! I caught The Time Traveller's Wife w Sylvia and Victoria, I LIKED IT. Victoria and I cried, despite Victoria watching it twice. Sylvia=cold-blooded.
HAPPY NINETEEN KAHMUN~

The Proposal is awesome, I had a good laugh :> Basically that's what I remember. Training on Wednesday w Damai coach, nothing much. Lunch, Donuts w Mr Chua and Coffeebean w Belinda to study! Saw Ignatius and i NEARLY got a free movie treat. Victoria cameover on Thursday and had our butts at MacDonalds for about 7hours...

It's sad when people you know become people you knew. When you can walk right past someone like there were never a big part of your life. How you used to be able to talk for hours and how now, you can barely even look at them. Is this how we're suppose to communicate?

Staring up at the stars that aren't there anymore.

Training was killer. 2km warmup run, 4.3km and coach wants us to run under 30mins, if not pushups for punishment... so we had 430 pushups for punishment but we did 230 today, owe him 200 on friday hehe. (hopefully friday we don't exceed time limit if not we will owe him foreverrr!) maintained my stamina, 27 mins yay~ boats changed, used nelo vanquish ll and did 10km straight. i'm damn tired. i couldn't feel my arm... major turn off. i've to endure, two more trainings to go! i don't want to stop now. lunch @ tampines w sissy and wifey! supposedly meeting coach for donuts aft lunch, but he came for a short while w jethro to meet us. karibs, all of us were dying there. dinner with family and home~

town w girls tomorrow WOOHOO.
but i'm tired...

Friday.

It was a pretty short week, with teachers' day celebration and stuff. i'm tired and it marks the end of term 3. got back our report cards, i was indeed jealous and i can't accept defeats. :( after school, ran around school finding for girls and woodlands mac for an inspirational talk by this national sailing team captain. it was pretty boring at the start, but after knowing more about sports and stuff, i felt enlightened~ pictures taking, macs for refreshments since the venue is @ macs and back to school. parkway's coffee bean w dianty! i killed my craving for the day- hot double chocolate with marshmallows. ultra shiokkk ^^ went adidas, finding shirts and bought my pink adidas bottle! (now kimberlyn, jo, rach and i have same bottles but all different colours) i like i like.

i'm tired.
training tomorrow, i wanna push myself for a week more.