Buried beneath all the lies.

I dont like to feel insecure. The feeling of emptiness is so overpowering. I need to scream and let out those fustrations. Can i just absent myself from reality? Ugh. One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter. That's exactly how im feeling. Its sad to know that people you know become people you knew. Like how they used to be part and parcel of your life but now you can barely look at them.

On a happier note,
training yesterday morning. Coach had invigilation for A levels and Mr Teo took over. We managed to finish 20km today!! Ah felt accomplished, thank you Kimberlyn :) Raced 200m with Mr Teo once and won us by 30m. Fast right. Hahah that's because he's from SJI and NJC, best canoeing schools ya. At our last 500m to our 20km, we raced with k4 and Mr Teo. We lost, but it was a good race :) The idea of having sunglasses worked, our coordination was good like what Mr Teo said.

Well. Many bad things aft training, fights crying all. I give up la seriously. Had lunch and three hours karibs, nearly died doing differentiation. Parents came and pick me up for steamboat dinner and everything changed after all the shouting. Collapsed when I reached home.